![]() ![]() We got pregnant after only a couple month of dating and ended moving in with each other because of it. She was amazing, loving, kind, sweet, caring, everything you could hope in a partner. I have never had joy in my life and I’m wrong for hoping someone else would fix it. Submitted by throwaway2929383886 to CPTSD Ģ023.03.27 08:25 JaneMallow Announcing everything I overanalyze things so much that I feel like I have reduced my quality of life and I can’t enjoy things the way normal people do. I always have had inauthentic reactions to people when they do this, and have given people the reactions that they expect (I realized I have been a people pleaser in doing this and I can not be happy if I change myself for the validation of others). The things that felt so important to me when I was younger have lost it’s impact, I feel like I’m dropping the illusions of life and seeing things for how they are and it is isolating.Įven when it comes to attractive people: If someone objectively attractive flirts with me, they are used to people doting on their physical appearance and getting their shots of dopamine from others, so them showing me pictures or doing certain things knowing they expect that same reaction from me just immediately makes me feel put off by it and it feels immature and silly to me. I just turned 17, so maybe I am going through a normal shift in perspective from a child to an adult, but I don’t want to lose the intrigue I felt to people and things, people felt like mysteries and the world felt large. ![]() They present themselves in ways to have a certain effect on others. The “great” things in life aren’t truly that great, they’re just marketed in ways that make you think things are so much better than they actually are. I can go very in depth about how viral posts and a lot of popular media are very boring when you see it for what it is and look past the things meant to draw you in and feel good watching it, but my point has been made. The majority of people I meet are like this.Īnd in social media, all I see are posts designed to get a certain reaction out of people AND IT WORKS EVERY TIME ON THEM. And yes, we all are in our own little worlds, but people are just so inconsiderate of others. It’s like people don’t see others, and are immersed in their own little worlds and fantasies. I don’t mean being confident, but when I see people interacting with others to boost their own ego or make themselves feel good instead of trying to genuinely connect with the person they are talking to. It disgust me how people are so egotistical, and self absorbed sometimes. It just makes life seem very superficial and I don’t feel like I have anyone I can TRULY connect to. This makes me feel almost a sense of disgust in others and a disconnect.Īnd I know the things I pointed out are things EVERYONE does to an extent. ![]() I feel like I am always reading the people around me and it leads to me getting disappointed a lot because I see character flaws in them and feel constantly let down by people.įor example, I can tell when people lie to me or when they are being slightly manipulative in situations or when someone does something to invoke a specific reaction out of the people around them, or portray themselves in certain ways to be perceived a specific way. I feel like, sometimes, I can see through people. I am constantly analyzing things and other people, I can easily recognize how people feel around me and feel very sensitive to them. Not because of depression and losing interest in the things around me, but because I recognize the constant patterns in things. I can no longer feel the same excitement I had about life that I did when I was younger. ![]()
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